I am a cat lover too. I do not own a cat now and I wish I could, but my living situation does not allow me to have pets.

The last cat that I owned, lived to be 23 years old! His name was "Mr. Bundles."

It was the saddest day of my life when he developed cancer.

At the time, I was living in Virginia Beach Virginia in "The Mayflower Seaside Apartments," a high-rise Oceanside apartment building on the corner of 34th Street and Atlantic Avenue.

I had a spectacular panoramic view of the Atlantic Ocean from my living room window, a triple wide size of window.

In my bedroom I would sleep with my bedside window open and fall asleep to the soothing sounds of the ebbs and tides of the waves splashing on the sandy shore.

I did everything I could to try to save Mr. Bundles, spending thousands of dollars at the Emergency Veterinary Hospital in Virginia Beach. After 23 years of being with me, my cat was much more than just a pet – He was a family member.

I could just not bear to let him go and being euthanized within the clinical coldness of a Veterinary Hospital.

In my apartment building, we had a security guard named Steve, who I spoke with often. I spoke with Steve during the time I was desperately trying to save my cat, while at the same time having the Veterinarians urge me to put my cat down.

As it turns out, Steve was a cat lover too, and had a cat that lived to be 16 years old. I told Steve of my struggle with having to have my cat put down within the clinical coldness of a Veterinary Hospital.

Steve had a solution for me. He knew of a Veterinarian who would come to your home or apartment and do the euthanasia procedure. That's what he did when his cat was sick and died. It was just the solution that I needed, and it came at the perfect time.

So, I called and arranged for the Veterinarian to come to my apartment to do the procedure. Mr. Bundles was laying beside me and against me in our favorite chair, like he always did.

I softly, slowly, and lovingly petted him while the Veterinarian did the injection. Mr. Bundles had the most amazing bright green eyes, and just before he died, he looked at me in such a way that he seemed to be speaking to me with his eyes, and telling me that this was okay, that he was ready to go.

As they say, "The eyes are the windows to your soul."

At that moment, I truly believed that this is so, because with his eyes, and from his soul, he told me that this was okay, that although he will miss me, and I him, this was his time to go, and in time I would be better. Then he closed his eyes forever.

I cried more then, than when in a few months later, my father died. I'm crying now as I write this.

I have always said:

If you think deeply about the personalities of cats versus dogs, one could easily see how this could be true.

I also had a dog named "Biscuit" who lived to be 17 years old. Although, I loved her very much, I so much more loved Mr. Bundles; for, he was like me, as we both had Autistic personalities.

Ines, I know that you especially know all too well how much it hurts deep within your heart when someone has to put their pet down, being that you are a Veterinarian.

This might be a little bit off-topic, but since you are a Veterinarian, you are Autistic, the fact that Autistic people are at a very high risk for Mental Health Issues, Suicidal Ideation, and Suicide, and that we are talking about death, I think it is apropos to share some surprising and unsettling information that I learned recently.

Disturbingly, Veterinarians have an alarmingly higher percentage of death by Suicide than the general population.

Veterinarians have to deal with the agonizing task of having to euthanize a complete stranger's beloved pet, it takes a tremendous toll on the Veterinarian's emotional and mental well-being.

For more information on Veterinarians sucicide, refer to this article published by PubMed Central© for the NIH (National Institutes of Health,) NLM (National Library of Medicine) and publiched on the NCBI (National Center for Biotechnology Information) Website:

Thank you for your words…


Keira Fulton-Lees
Artfully Autistic Advocate for Autism



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Keira Fulton-Lees

Keira Fulton-Lees

Artfully Autistic Advocate for Autism, Writer, Editor, Artist, Musician, Owner of the Medium Publication: Artfully Autistic: